Whirlwind

That is what this life is. Once you find yourself in that false sense of security and routine, and an unexpected gust comes up and throws you off balance you try to regain your center. But that is the point, life has no center. Sure we secure ourselves around family and friends, but if you examine them, we aren't always weighted perfectly centered in everyone's life. We can't be. We do our best to center ourselves in an unbalanced world. When you add kids and family and friends, work, hobbies, home, etc. you are accomplishing quite a feat.

So when I say these past two and a half weeks have been a whirlwind, that is no mere exaggeration.

I have been dating a wonderful man for a little over 4 months now (as well as several other guys here and there). But it wasn't until I took a chance and agreed to date him exclusively that I realized how truly wonderful he is. In the past couple weeks, he has seen me at my craziest time of year with work, and he supported me wholeheartedly. He has met and made a huge effort to spend time with and get to know each of my energetic kids. He has even put up with me reiterating what a huge role he is stepping into becoming serious with me. And yet he is willing to.

I am so glad I took the time to go back and write out some of the things that have been taking up residence in my head, because if I had not already been forced to acknowledge these concerns of mine, I don't know that I would have been brave enough to agree to try a relationship.

We are both in no way delusional about the issues that may still arise, as there are sure to be, but I am ready to move into a new adventure in my life, as scary as it may be.